do you even know how much it hurts
you gave up on me to be with her

off to hong kong tmr baybehh! :D :D
can't wait. and i'm gonna miss humans.

thanks dee for accompanying me to ws to buy stuffs for hk.
sorry i couldn't make it for dinner with you and your parents eyy.
next time maybe? AYAM PENYET WHOOOTS! ;D

updates on past few days:
went to school but couldn't get in cause i was wearing slippers. -.-
then i had to shove my foot into dee's shoes which were four sizes smaller.
pleasethanks for that. haha.

after that headed to ws and dee played hide-and-seek with ehemehem.
retarded really. but oh well. it's dee we're talking about. HUAHAHA!
around five plus, dee called just to say she saw a certain someone.
which made me feel like beraking after that. whoever cares really.
HOHO.

dearest shabrina, it's ok to tell me about that thgy.
it took you half a fries time to spill it out, btw. haha.
but no worries. that will never ever ever affect our friendship alright?
:D i've got your back always. many years of friendship won't
and will never go down the drain over such things. ILYSM girl!

ok i have to complete packing my bags.
shall end it here.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007 3:08 AM back to top?

you tell me that you need me
then you go and cut me down

WE WON DRILL COMP! :D :D :D
kinda unexpected but yeahh. WHOOOOOO!
anyhoos. i must congratulate the other two schools as well,
siglap and dunman npcc. ya'll were great, really. :D
and everybody did their best so yeah, that's what counts.
it's the amount of hardwork and effort you put into it
that makes everything worthwhile eyy. (:

so after that dee and me went to make the campshirt.
it's done. yes, finally. but 'cept for the cadets'.
cause we're still unsure of the quantity to order.
anyway, people. the shirt will cost 15 bucks each.
so start prepare to dig up money eh. haha. sucks.
money money money. tak abis2 mintak duit.
Friday, November 16, 2007 3:45 AM back to top?

i wish i could give the world to you
but love is all i have to give


DEAREST GEE.

cheer up alright?
i don't really know what went on between you both.
so i'm just gonna say, stay strong and don't cry aight?
(: you know your hurt is my pain as well right?
i would always love to see you smiling and being kental.
and if i could give the world to you to make you happy, i would.
i'm sure he has his reasons and all. and like i've said,
some things are better off left unsaid. but i have to agree,
if i were you, i would get curious and would wanna dig up stuffs.
but hey, if it's only gonna have a bad impact on the relationship,
you might wanna think twice about it. nevertheless, i want you to be happy.
you both are great together now. let's just forget the past and look
forward to the future eyy. :D ILYSM to ever wanna see you hurt.
Sunday, November 11, 2007 7:32 AM back to top?

hurt at first, a little bit
but now i'm so over it

HAPPY :D
went to buy some stuffs for hongkong trip. bought new levi's and this trench coat.
haziq bought clothes too. who's the one going to hongkong la sey? haha.
fine fine. don't be greedy farina. HEEEEEEEEEEE! (X
and there's more i wanna buy! ahhhhhh. ok sucks. mama said enough for now.
i've got my eye on some. am so gonna go back there. huuuuhhhuuuuu.
but i need a job first pleasethanks. anyone kind enough?
*GRINS WIDEEEELYYYY

i need money money money to:
-pay off exploded handphone bill since mama threatens not to pay for me. -.-
-buy stuffs for myself duhh
-buy more stuffs for hongkong trip
-buy stuffs for farewell night
-just simply spend on

:D:D:D
reasonable enough?

sean's gonna be super super lovely and help me find a job.
and NO, i won't divide it 70:30. go die you toot.
ok no. i need you alive. gahhha.
7:19 AM back to top?

if it's ever gonna work out, you gotta stop lying
stop blaming her when it's you

BLEEDING LOVE

so i dragged my butt off the bed early in the morning today.
cause someone ringed her please utterings into my head the night before.

long post cut short, today's outing was ok.
the first impression was suckish but it turned out to be ok later.
dee and me watched something we had already watched before.
but oh well. since we kesian kan them all, we watched again.
was sort of dying in the theatre. cause i knew the storyline already.
-.- but nevermind. for dee's sake ehh. dee's sake. :D
but anyhoos. thanks suhadan for the treat.
(: it's muchmuchmuch appreciated, really.

i enjoyed the bus ride home cause i got to sleep. WHOOOO!
but aslam's cousin, syafiq or however you spell it, was noisy.
kept on pestering me to sit next to hurrhurrr, that person.
he was like,"alah. tak yah malu2. sini ah. farina. sini ah."
and it went on for god knows how long. dee pon sekaki.
tsktsk, tak nak means tak nak. ada paham? heeeeeeeee. xD
then finally, after he shuts his gap, i managed to get some sleep.
but urgh, my dearest handphone fell and it kinda woke me up.
thanks eh phone. thanks. spoil my sleep only.

next, met up with my cousin and her kawan and jihan.
and thanks shafiqa's kawan for the treat. :DD
i suppose you enjoy treating others food? haha. but thanks!
then, i was suppose to go home with sean but nahh, i went first.
didn't want to disturb his moment with his kawan. haha.
so yeahh. am finally home. i'm tired and i want to sleep but i can't.
ahh, sleep farina sleep.
Friday, November 9, 2007 6:39 AM back to top?

still the memory of you
marks everything i do

TATTOO

suddenly i feel like i miss my cousins terribly.
ohmygod. i have to have to have to see them soon!

currently, i can't sleep cause i've slept in the afternoon.
and sean's accompanying me through smses. thanks eh dude.
for being there like ultimately most of the time. :D
i feel bad i sort of neglected him cause of -.
when he's the one who's been there through it all.
the one who hears me whine and complain and whine all over again.
and doesn't whine and complain back when i did that.
i'm grateful to have you in my life, really.
a friend i'll never forget. (: WHOOO!

i'm so so so happy i met up with christine the other day.
felt like forever since i last saw her. aww, misses!
i miss the good ol' 6h'04 days. and beloved mr thiru.
the teacher who spends tons of kerrrr-chingg(!) on us.
reminiscence. ok, why am i sappy in the middle of the night?

i love family.
mummy, the one who sees the change in me.
the one i've disappointed and seen hurt one, too many times
but pasted a smile and suck it all in just like a sponge.
the one who'll wipe my tears away and tell me everything's
gonna be alright no matter how far i pushed away.
the one who would always wanna see me smile and loving life.
the one who'll always be there no matter what.
the one who has always been there no matter what.

daddy, the one who didn't say much about me.
the one who worked hard day and night to finance the family
and never once complained about shortage of money, if any.
the one who gives me shelter and protection but i never really
showed appreciation, only rebelled against for a return.
the one who even when feeling tired, would fetch me from
wherever i was late at night after work so i'll be safe.
the one who silently cares for us and loves us to the ends of the earth.

sister, the one who knows what's right and wrong for me.
the one who tried to advice me whenever i did something wrong
but i always put on a deaf ear and pretended to hear.
the one who would forever stand by me.

little brother, the one who causes nuisance but is a darling.
the one who in any way, tries to make me laugh though it may be annoying.
the one who brings me joy whenever i'm down.

family, the people who would never give up on me.
there for me through thick and thick. through it all.
Thursday, November 8, 2007 7:51 AM back to top?

your life's imploded now
there's a risk worth taking

today's drill comp training was cancelled.
cause a huge amount of 8 people turned up.
a lot eh? yeah, i thought so too. HOHO.

i swear i'm gaining weight.
i drank mocha frappe with lots of whipped cream and chocolate
shavings today and yesterday. yes, twice in a row.
i know humans are happy i'm gaining weight but
annoyed i'm complaining about gaining weight.
HEEEEEEEEE! (x especially mumsy and sister. HURRR.

wanted to meet dearest dee today but nahh, cause i was tired and hungry.
haha. i was being such a pig, i know.
but hey, a hungry man/woman is an angry man/woman.
so shoosh.

they say that good things take time
but really great things happen in the blink of an eye
Tuesday, November 6, 2007 3:57 AM back to top?

what if i wanted to break
and laugh it off in your face

"Tell her she's gonna be fine.
And that she deserves better.
Tell her that if he loves her,
he would never make her cry.
So cheer up, cause life's not
always in black and white.
Smile, cause life's too short for misery"

ok, so you didn't get the hint.
(plays cricket sound) -.-

i've got nothing to blog about.
mind's blank at the moment.
oh mood swing strikes again.

before i forget.
thanks dearest jihan for talking on the phone
with me till around 1.45 in the morn' yesterday.
(: it's muchmuchmuch appreciated.
and another dearest of mine, dee, cheer up ok?
we've got each other's back, aight?
you know i'll be there for you even if it's
4 in the morn' right? HEEEE! :D :D
ILYSM!

ya'll mean life to me.
and so are the wonderful people in my life.
(:
Sunday, November 4, 2007 6:26 AM back to top?

they said it's easy for a good girl to go bad
but i'll never kiss the ground you walk on

RIWAYAT CINTA

the whole song/just the chorus says it all, i guess?

yesterday's raya outing with 2e1'06 was nice.
at least it was somewhat better organised than last year's.
we didn't delay as much at each house and yeah.
sort of managed to complete the houses. :D

raya outing with 3e5'07 was nice as well.
and we played headbands at shushu's house!
it was so kental. with the thgy on our heads and all.
haha. but we had fun. yeahh. (: (:
got home nearing to 12. and sorry farah.
we couldnt make it to your house.
(: some other time, alright.

dear -,

I'm wishin' you the best
Pray that you are blessed
Much success, no stress, and lots of happiness
I'm not gonna blast you on the radio
I'm not gonna lie on you or your family, yo
I'm not gonna hate you in the magazine
I'm not gonna compromise my reality
You know I'm not gonna diss you on the Internet

Cause my momma taught me better than that.

i can't be bothered with all these anymore, really.
if you've got something to say/you wanna talk, then you beep me.
or it shall be goodbye for now my pretty boy.
Saturday, November 3, 2007 10:07 PM back to top?