my heart's at a low
i'm so much to manage







TO JIHAN JAAFAR AL-KATHIRI
GET WELL SOON OKAAAAYY. MISS YOU DARLING!
;D

school was okay today. thought i wouldn't survive cause was tired like crap. and thanks yani for the ghost stories! haha, gave me goosebumps really. but at least it helped me to stay awake and all. :D :D

poa test tomorrow D:
Wednesday, March 26, 2008 6:02 AM back to top?

so let go and move on
what we were is now undone



the usb cable for my phone doesn't want to work! urgh i've been putting the cable in and out of the computer and my phone. annoying much cause i reallyreallyreally wanna put this one song due to sudden re-addiction. oh please work cableeeeee. i promise i'll be extraextra nice and keep you properly next time kay!

gosh i'm talking to my own cable. insanity.

poa's homework kinda stagnant. i know it's on an easy topic but i just can't get myself to pick up the pen and start doing it. phobia of doing poa homework. -shivers- i want the old time grades back pleaseeeeee. haha, and a sudden flashback. sandra, aqilah and me were talking bout our l1r5/l1r4 in bk just now. we SERIOUSLY (emphasis on seriously) don't think we can make it if our grades continue to be erm. like that. am tryna think positive but heh one word to sum up our situation: die.

yes depressing i know.
Monday, March 24, 2008 7:57 AM back to top?

every tear that falls into the ocean rises to the sky
then the rain will come right before the sun shines






abcdefgxzxzxz! i didn't have to go for the interview thingy just now. hahahaha okay none of my concern to be pissed cause i didn't go either. pity syafiq and syahieda and whoever else who had to go. huaaaaaaaahahaha.

ANYWAY. likewhattheshit. terserempak with irfan and that dude whose name i forgot in 359. like -.- gee and dee kept telling me about irfan and how he's changed and all and suddenly his face TERPAMPANG infront of me. haha but okay whatever. am happy for him that he's changed for the better and all :D


EHH GUINEA PIG/CHINCHILLA HINT HINT LA EH.

whatthefuck (!) pms much you stupid bitch
5:12 AM back to top?

i feel my memories fade with time
but i'm too young to worry







campcraft comp is postponed again due to the heavy downpour. like whatthehell laaaa. it rained when we've just reached the place. now fairuz, myrah and me aren't sure if we're gonna go again next week. takut the same thing happens again. if it does, god it'll be sucha waste of our time timestwo.

and i've talked to sister bout having a new pet, miss the feeling of having one around ):
(okay i'm not gonna cry) hmm, a guinea pig or chinchilla maybe? :D :D



alahai cute nyaaaaaaaa!
Sunday, March 23, 2008 2:13 AM back to top?

but through it all
i can see the love slipping away



i shall post bout hrc in the next post eyy. after i get the pictures from fairuz and all. :D

anyway, just finished watching this korean horror movie with mumsy online. haha, swear i'd never watch any horror movies alone okaaaayy. even my sister was like,"tengok criter hantu ngan ina tak guna. nanti dier kepung muker tu sumer. then hantu keluar pun tak nampak. aperrrr jerrr." hahaha whatever la eh. it's not like i covered my whole face whaaaaaatt. i still can see whatever ghost appearances in the movie la kaayy. pfffttt.

rrr, promo test tomorrow. some of us still have to go although we've gotten our staff sergeant rank cause we still needa try for first class drill badge. -.- like not leceh eh. justin even better. he was like,"i don't want first class ah. i prefer second class. the yellow badge than the red one." hahaha. like dotsssssssss.
Friday, March 14, 2008 5:22 AM back to top?

telling my whole life with his words
killing me softly with his songs



HIGH ROPE TOMORROW! yeah baybeh! can't wait :D :D and hopefully it doesn't rain. else it'll ruin the whole thing, i think? heh gosh please please don't rain tmr. D:

whatthefisheeeeeess. sufi's leaving for perak tonight. okay not him alone. the whole of sec 4 eastview npcc people are going tonight. like fun kan. apparently, according to sufi, their npcc teachers want them to UNWIND before o'level/n'level. to so called keep their mind at ease and for them to end their npcc journey with something that they'll all enjoy. AHH WHATEVER OKAY. i'm not jealous i'm not jealous. hah.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008 7:40 PM back to top?

just a classic case
a scenario tale as old time





How could I forget?
The very day you left
It was like you took me to space
And bam! To earth, I crashed
Only a week had gone by
But the feeling without you near
I swear, it felt like forever
Boy, why did you have to leave?
You left me hanging in the pouring rain
All alone and sober to ease my own pain
I swear I’ll cry a million tears
I swear I’ll shout so you can hear
But boy, it’ll never make a difference
You’re gone and I can’t bring you back
I have to admit, I really miss your presence
Your sweet words and your gentle touch
Oh boy, didn’t you know I loved you so much?
Please tell me why did you have to leave?
But now, time has helped me to heal
It eased my pain and taught me to stand
On my own two feet, and the help of friends,
I refixed the puzzles of my life once again
Only now I’ve come to realise,
No matter how you used to say
That you’ll love me night and day,
We’re too young to even comprehend love
You gave me broken empty promises
Those I held on to, never knew you’d throw it all away
You broke my heart and everything went to waste
The very night you told me you needed space
Sure, I will still miss you
And maybe hope you’ll come back someday
But for now, in my teenage years,
Let’s not get involve in yet another game of love
Thanks, you’ve made me strong
Taught me right and wrong
I’ll never forget you
The one I loved deeply
The one who took my very heart
The one who had hurt me so much

was browsing through my files and i found this. (:
wrote the poem in class last year. old memories eyy.
Monday, March 10, 2008 9:48 PM back to top?

hopeful dreaming of times before the pain
wishing it was still the same





didn't get to go to nadira's and sean's bday party yesterday. and oh didn't get to meet up with the babes after their movie as well. see, atuk is unwell. so yeah had to visit him. ahh, he's the only one we have left. ): sedih kan. but it's okay. insya'allah atuk will get better in time. he's been so weak eversince arwah nenek minah passed away. stay strong kay. (:
you've still got us!

anyway, am still waiting for sandra to confirm the time and place for studying later. sekali she's still sleeping eh. GOODNESS! (hahaha! inside joke) kental la sandra. she's always able to make me laugh. syahieda too! haha. ahhhhh, the two babes who have never failed to make me laugh so hard, i swear. (:

we tell lies when we are afraid but everytime we tell a lie, our fear only grows stronger
9:10 PM back to top?

it's gonna hurt when it heals
but it'll all be better in time



maybe i'm gonna meet the girls after their movie instead today cause i'm brokeeee like shit and i don't intend to ask mumsy and papito for money cause i've been asking for waaayy too much for the past few weeks. see, imma good daughter yo! haha. plus mumsy's promise shopping soon. so i'd rather spend all the money on that :D :D

i wanna go gym desperately (YES DESPERATELY!) cause i don't think the camp has left any impact on my weight. to think of it, i think i gained instead of lose weight over the camp laaaaaa. ): depressing.

anyway, i miss shabrina like a hell lot. there's so much i have to rant to her, urgh. hope she's doing fine eyy (: meet up soon darling! sery and shereen too. goshes it's been forever since i last heard shereen's laughter. ):
Sunday, March 9, 2008 9:55 PM back to top?

you thought i'd be sad without you;
i laughed harder



their introduction to bittergourd yo!
yeah, the flour game
meet ahmad solihin! :D :D
haha. just had to snap a picture of this.

back from camp yesterday and i slept like a log. oh wonderful bed.
my body still aches like crap and it hurts to even walk. ahh sucks. ):
but anyway. thanks siti for helping to urut yesterday. (:
it was super ticklish i swear. haha.

overall, the camp was okay, there were fun times and all. (: guess it's all up to one's mindset on how one wants the camp to turn out to be like, right? like if one thinks the camp's gonna be a bore and all, then won't the outcome be like how one thought it would be? HMMM.

posted some pictures here. shall post more after i get them from daphane.
:D

it's funny how you thought you knew someone and a situation just changes it all
Saturday, March 8, 2008 9:32 PM back to top?

she says to herself,"you've left before;
this time you will stay gone for sure"





common test results are torn between okay and depressing.
and i reallyreallyreally feel bad like fisheeeeesssss cause i've disappointed mdm zaibon. i just don't seem to click with poa this year. rashi and me suffering the same fate eyy. but it's okay. tryna think positive and keep my hopes up still (: we shall pull this through together alright babe. and mdm zaibon, i'll never let you down promise (:

sec one npcc orientation camp tomorrow. not really ecstatic over it. there goes my suppose-to-be-friday-of-sleeping-early-and-waking-up-late-the-next-day plan.
heh what a shoooorrrtt title.

bought food stuffs for tomorrow's camp with nadia, shushu and syafiq at giant just now. i had fun and yeah, had a good laugh. :D :D people, nadia sooooo can't push the trolley okay. she'll sondol you like nobody's business. haha. she pushed the trolley till it got caught up with my shoes. then after awhile, she bumped the trolley onto shushu's butt. aiyyyooo. danger ah this woman. haha. anyway, once we're done, syafiq wanted to eat so yeah we sat at the food court. shushu and me bought the french loaf set meal. GOODNESS IT WAS DELISH OKAY.
a must try eyy. heeee.

well obviously an annoying incident happened. you know, there was this sale thingy over at giant just now. they were selling this basket-bowl-like kinda thingy for 10 cents each. so me, nadia and shushu decided to buy for our mumsies la. there was a variety of colours. shushu wanted a blue one cause duhh it was nice. so she asked this aunty if she could trade one of her lime green for her blue. and the old aunty was like,"noo. cannot. just now i told you to faster take you don't want. this is mine. cannot. i like the blue. cannot." and we were like, WHAT THE FISHEESSS! she was being so mean and whatnot la when shushu actually asked nicely and ended her sentence with a please. TSK. like c'mon. she had like around 10 plus of that thingy in blue. can't she trade just one with the lime green? won't die right aunty? like what laaa. then i was like,"eh nadia. we take one, put over her head then run away with the blue one nak?" and nadia was like,"okay ah. you go from left, i go from right." (haha) so merepek ah. but whatever la ehh. i doubt she's even gonna use all of those she bought. pfffffftt. talk about rude and kiasu much.

RRRR some people are just (insert adjectives here).
Thursday, March 6, 2008 4:03 AM back to top?

she inhales a breath she'd never breathed before
don't want no drama no more





I'VE GAINED WEIGHT! like whatthefishessssssssss. ):):):
depressing okaaayy. and i don't care what you people say cause i know myself best. huahaha.

GEEEEEEE. i know how you feel kaaaaayyy. cause i've been seeing stick figures wherever i go as well. like pffffftttt, i don't care if you're skinny. BUT if you're stick-like, GO GORGE DOWN FOOD HUMAN. and i sure do hope ya'll know that there's such thing as food. yes, the thing we call "food" exists okay? hurrrrrrr. maaaaaaann. i swear i don't mind giving you my fats. at least it'll help when you feel cold kay. FATS ARE FOR WARMTH AND COMFORT. or so i think?

alah, whatever ah kay. who cares if you prefer sticking your finger down your throat and go through the ever so exciting process of puking right? EHEMEHEM. but bleargh. whatever la eh.

studying with aqilah and sandra was so much love! :D :D study together again okay?
Monday, March 3, 2008 2:09 AM back to top?

a thousand lies have made me colder
and i don't think i can look at this the same





don't make someone a priority when they only make you as an option in their life
Sunday, March 2, 2008 7:21 AM back to top?

we'll live happily ever after
and i'll take all your pain away






today was so much fun. (: finally a family day out after ages of not going out together. went shopping and whatnot though it was pouring heavily. everything was nice but the rain kinda made the outing leceh and all. but it's okay. hujan itu nikmat kan? :D :D heeeeeee.

i realise sister's been there for me like always. eventhough i tend to push her away at times, she's the one who is able to keep my super deepest and darkest secrets and the one whom i'm able to talk to about anything under the lovely blue sky. (: dearest sis, i'm thankful to have you in my life. and i love you oh so very much okay. thanks for everything.

biar beputar utara selatan ku tak putus harapan sedia setia
5:52 AM back to top?

a whole new world
a dazzling place i've never seen



blog's reopen (: and i wanna start afresh.
no cursing and swearing and stuffs like that here okaaaaayy.
no emo shiets either. okay maybe a teensy bit when i feel down.
BUT ANYWAY, promise it'll mostly be about happy stuffs.
-grins extra wideeeeeeeely- :D :D

CAUSE LIFE'S TOO SHORT FOR THE DOWNS RIGHT? ;D
Saturday, March 1, 2008 5:09 AM back to top?