after standing tall for so long
i don't know why i gave myself in

UP AGAINST THE WALL

tears won't make things any better, would it?
i hope everything's gonna be fine between us
and yeah, hopefully we'll figure something out.

i wanna be happy either way.
cause boy, life's too short for misery.
so whatever decision you make, i'll be fine with it.
i've told you mine. so now it's your turn.
don't worry about me. i'll be alright.

(:
Tuesday, October 30, 2007 8:21 PM back to top?

i'd run a million miles
just to hear you say my name

GOOD GIRL GONE BAD
sudden re-addiction to this :D

Easy for a good girl to go bad
And once we gone
Best believe we gone forever
Don’t be the reason
Don’t be the reason
You better learn how to treat us right
Cuz once a good girl goes bad
We die forever
oh finally. alhamdulillah things are healing.
im happy. yes, veryvery happy. (:
cause i don't like/enjoy keeping things inside.
best to let them out and talk it over, yeah?

plus i miss ya'll so much.
can't stand another day quarelling.

:D get well soon -
we jangkit each other eh?
and oh. i miss you already.
Saturday, October 27, 2007 4:48 AM back to top?

if good times were to last for a lifetime
would there ever be conflicts in life?

ok. i'm sorry if i too, chanced on something i wasn't suppose to.
but hey, we have to admit.
if we didn't realise about this, it might just be going on and on
and eventually not make the situation any better.
so it's sort of good and bad in a way.
but whatever it is, i'm sorry.

i'd try to explain for the questions you've posted.
i didn't purposely walk out when W wanted to talk.
do you know how i felt at that moment?
there i was, calling her and trying to talk to her while she was going on
writing on the dance room's floor with i-dont-know-what.
i felt like my effort to talk things out was to no avail.
that's why i left. cause hey, why bother trying to make things better
when others just don't seem to be trying to do the same thing too, ya'know?
get what i mean?

and yeah, i was sick. and still am.
i've lost 4kg due to this, just for your info.
even i don't know what's wrong with my tummy and what sickness i'm down with.
but please, try to understand.

and lastly, no. i'm not willing to sacrifice this over friendship.
where do you think the thought of backing out came from?
we felt like if we backed out of this competition and things
would be better among us, then why not?
why the conflict and all just over this. agree?
and it's not like we didn't want to mix around with ya'll like old times.
but at this rate, where we didn't talk things out and think badly about each other,
won't we be giving each other black faces whenever we see one another?

however, i'm glad that this thing is sort of resolved.
i'm looking forward to a fresh start and hope ya'll are too.

and i give ya'll my sincerest apology.

till next time,
-.
Thursday, October 25, 2007 4:20 AM back to top?

when you talk, do you hear yourself talking?
or was it just some ringing in your ear?

TO BE WITH YOU


yes, i have to agree that there's limits to one's patience.
but c'mon. you have to think bout others patience limits as well.
we're all human, aren't we? let's not be selfish and only think about oneself.

first of all. there was never any ditching or any of those sort.
we didn't attend school. and so, how do ya'll expect us to attend for np training?
do you see us roaming around in school and not attend for np? no, agree?
then why do ya'll even have the idea that we're ditching ya'll?
please. we know better than that.

whatever it is,
think about it. are ya'll willing to sacrifice friendship over this?
this conflict has gone way too overboard. don't you realise?
it's slapping us in the face but yet we're still not resolving it.
how far more can we go through this shit?

once we're over with this, are ya'll willing to just leave our friendship hanging as well?
ridiculous, don't you think so?

c'mon. how are we suppose to work together when there's segregation among us?

think.

nobody's wrong. and nobody's right.
but still. i'll say i'm sorry.

best regards,
-.
2:36 AM back to top?

the melody you sang

im confused.
you should have told me those stuffs earlier.
now i don't know if i've made the right decision.
oh fudge.

tummy has been creating problems.
i ate only one piece of chocolate wafer stick.
the next thing i know, im in the toilet doing youknowwhat.
this is ridiculous.

a note to whoever.
if you've got a problem with us, come and say it to our face.
no use slamming us over your blog, going on and on like you're so big.
puhleese. im not affected, really. drop the pretence bitch.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007 1:06 AM back to top?

time starts to pass
before you know it you're frozen

time check : 0355. and i'm still awake.



Big tears fall down like puddles
When something cuts it bleeds
Big storms leave towns in rubbles
Shore just recedes

Take some time to secure
A stream of water to occur
But crying is a way to know
Your tears are how you learn and grow
So better off to let it flow
Stains on cheeks will come to know

Heartaches and hopes for healing
Through the raining of your tears
You'll learn the pain you're feeling

Take some time to secure
A stream of water to occur
But crying is a way to know
Your tears are how you learn and grow

So better off to let it flow
Stains on cheeks will come to know

There may not be more than one of you
Appearing to be by your side
But if the ones you still love are here
To fight against time

Take some time to secure
A stream of water to occur
But crying is a way to know
Your tears are how you learn and grow
So better off to let it flow
Stains on cheeks will come to know

Don't speak. I know what you're saying.
So please stop explaning. Don't tell me 'cause it hurts.
Don't speak. I know what you're thinking.
I don't need your reasons. Don't tell me 'cause it hurts.
With my head in my hands I sit and cry.

it was a stab from nowhere. so cold and cruel.
My heart’s crippled by the vein that I keep on closing.
You cut me open and I keep bleeding.
keep, keep bleeding love.
Friday, October 19, 2007 11:54 AM back to top?

i don't believe in fairytale

WWWWOOOOOOHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOO!

exams are finally finally finally over! :D more freedom to do whatever else. eh no. still have to help mum for hari raya's preparation. alah. nevermind. slow and steady wins the race. mum was like,"you do bit by bit la. won't feel tired." yeahyeah. you ARE suppose to say that to make me not open my big gap and complain and whine and whatever not. haha.

i don't wanna start on how the papers were. in total, they were all ok. regrets and other feelings put aside pleasethanks. exams should not ruin my hari raya mood. but then again. i dont really feel the hari raya atmosphere. do you? heh. i know most of the humans i know don't feel the atmosphere either.

hari raya preparation has been going fine. i think. some kuih dah bake. :DDD and who's the oh so lovely person who helped mum to bake? YOURS TRULY. haha. mum and dad bought crackers and snacks already. mostly left with the cleaning of the house. the part i dread, duhh. -.- i shall not start to whine.

one more finally. i get to see my darlings in a less panicky state tmr! HOHO. especially jihan. XD she panicks wayyyy too much when it comes to exams and tests, eyy?

shall end it here. have to clear up my barangbarangs.
Monday, October 8, 2007 3:07 AM back to top?