refer to the bunny pictures. isn't this life? you'll see people smiling at you and acting nicely towards you and all. but the only thing going on in their head is,"i hate you. please kindly drop dead and die." HAH.
menifest, a permentasan put up by tpjc people was niceeeeeee. and i surely enjoyed myself yaye. i loveeloveeeeeee the dikir barat(s) performance the most! :D :D haha. i would so want to go to the next permentasan held by tpjc ;D
so after that i crashed at syahirah's house. eh no. her parent's house. cause i'll be too lazy to wait for a bus when it's late at night. wanted to ask papa to pick me up but guess he'd be too tired after work. see, i'm a good daughter. haha, riiiiiigggghtt.
YAYE tomorrow's sephia darling's bday party! but it's all the way at woodlands maaaaann. hah it's okaaay. as long as i get to see my darling-est niece! WHOOTS!
okay i'm tired. CIAO.
Saturday, May 31, 20081:19 AMback to top?
pheeeeww. *BREATHES IN DEEPLY AS A SIGN OF RELIEF. malay o'level is finally over and done with. and i still do shiver whenever i think of the paper, no kid. D: to sum it all up, the papers were okay. didn't have enough time to complete my essay so i had to cut it short. hope the ending's not that abrupt and all. and i didn't get to include much frasa berbunga as well. depressing ): kefahaman for paper two was okay but i wasn't sure of my answers. like, i think i've written down the points but i don't know if i've written enough or otherwise. and the answers for the questions are sort of alike. or so i think. HMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
english prelim oral was okay too. mrs tang is cute i swear. seeing her laugh and smile when i answered her questions for the conversation part made me laugh too :D :D haha. but i was rather scared at first. cause i know she'll be very particular bout how we were gonna articulate and all. anyhoos, the situation wasn't as tense as i thought it would be. ahhh, i love her laaaaaa.
and now, i'm dead tired. couldn't sleep well yesterday cause i was suffering from humidity and the freaaaaaking aircon doesn't wanna work -_____- fishbaaallzz. of all the days for it not to work, it had to be spoiled a few hours before my big day (HAH big day keperrrr) i'm so gonna bunk it with my bro tonight. okay no. that's a maybe. anyway, my point is. i wanna sleep soon already. so nitey nite world.
i'm gonna be on hiatus for a longlonglong time. (i want to write somemore long(s) but i'm too lazy to type more. so three would do :D :D heee. okay dots. why the hell am i typing this out -____-)
i want to mug like crazy with sandra and aqilah and whoever else. yesyesyes. i want to pull up my grades. i HAVE TO pull up my grades or no school in singapore/the world/the universe would ever want to take me in. -plays sad song- this is the part where you can start crying for me. hahahaha. okay ignore whatever i'm typing out here. this is a post-syndrome of studying. you know, when you start going cuckoo and talk crap? yeaaahhh, that's right.
and i have to save up during holiday else i'll rot and you'll be attending my funeral when school reopens. macam understand jer~ isk, astaghfirullahalazim. tak baik berbual macam gitu tau farina tauuuuu.
andandand i'm currently waiting for my parents to return home with my nasi ayam penyet. i swear my bad eating habits have return. rrr irritating. this is so binge eating okaaaayy. ahh whatever.
uddin's artwork which i helped to complete -.- am i like super nice or super nice? hahaha
i don't care laaaaaa bitch. hahahaha. okay, just thought of typing that out. goes to whoever who terasa yaye ;D
Don't tell me you love me if you are not sincere For a lie that strong can ruin my life and bring on a new fear. Fear to be loved, fear to love ever again It can cause my fragile heart to break, tear and bend. Think of all in life that will be missed because of one small broken promise So, when I put all of my trust deep within you Please don't tell me you love me, unless you truly do.
o'level malay is in THREE DAYS' TIME. freeeeaaaaakkkkk. i'm so not ready can? i know we've done quite a number of practice/revisions and all. but i don't feel confident in clinching that a1. I WANT THAT A1 OKAY. it's notnotnot a choice. i mustmustmust get that a1. or i'll just drop dead if i get another grade on the day of the results. ahhhh fishballzzzz. haha macam understand~
*PANICS PANICS
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you'll have to learn one day. things can never be the way you want it to. never wanted things to go this far. but what's done is done. there's no turning back. we can never be.
they made me laugh, cry and laugh all over again. thanks for the wonderful birthday darlings (: could never ask for more. i love you all laaaaaaaaaaaa :D :D hahaha.
Tuesday, May 20, 20084:42 AMback to top?
i've watched congkak! :D :D haha, the movie was okay. better than jangan pandang belakang i suppose. anyway, syahirah is super kental i swear. next time can't let her hold the popcorn when watching horror movie. popcorns were strewn all over the floor laaa. hahaha. kental kental (x
and now, i have to complete my malay stuffs. CIAO.
Monday, May 19, 20084:25 AMback to top?
Ku tutup mataku Dari semua pandanganku Bila melihat matamu Kuyakin ada cinta ketulusan hati Yang mengalir lembut
Penguasa Alam Tolonglah pegangi aku Biar ku tak jatuh Pada sumur dosa yang terkutuk Dan menyesatkan cintaku Andaikan ku bisa Lebih adil pada cinta kau dan dia
Aku bukan Nabi yang bisa sempurna Ku tak luput dari dosa Biarlah ku hidup seperti ini Takdir cinta harus begini Ada kau dan dia bukan ku yang mau Oh Tuhan tuntunlah hatiku
i've watched ayat-ayat cinta maaaaaaannzzz. and it's so sedih la. after the part fahri gets married to aisyah onwards. gosh i cried ): sedih perrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. and yeah, it's a must watch :D :D
Sunday, May 18, 20087:36 AMback to top?
Dust is my bed, embracing me and it's my cover now The sands are around engulfing me from all directions And the tomb recounts (the story of) the darkness of my calamity And the light has destined that my pleasure is in meeting Allah
Dust is my bed, embracing me and it's my cover now The sands are around engulfing me from all directions And the tomb recounts (the story of) the darkness of my calamity And the light has destined that my pleasure is in meeting Allah
Where is the kindness of kin? They relinquished fidelity Where are the scores of friends? They dispensed with my brotherhood Where is the bliss of money? I left it behind And where is the glory of fame and compliments? That's my end; dust is my bed
Dust is my bed, embracing me and it's my cover now The sands are around engulfing me from all directions And the tomb recounts (the story of) the darkness of my calamity And the light has destined that my pleasure is in meeting Allah
The beloved bid farewell to his love and cried my elegy The tears flow dried out, after crying The vast universe shrank, narrowing my space The tomb to my corpse became both my land and my sky That's my end; dust is my bed
Fear overwhelms my estrangement and sadness is my ailment Hoping for steadfastness, which is -i swear- my remedy
Sincerely supplicating to the Lord; you are my hope Hoping -O Allah- for a paradise in which my bliss shall be attained Sincerely supplicating to the Lord; you are my hope Hoping -O Allah- for a paradise in which my bliss shall be attained
watched this at madrasah. eye-wakening ain't it? and the singer sounds good as well (: smoothing voice and song.
5:35 AMback to top?
ohmygod. today is frigging humid i swear. and duhh, when i feel warm and all, i'll get irrated easily. so i was irritated and all during the career seminar cause each booth were packed with people and some of the psl were kinda being irritating. but some were okay. okay, you get my point. humidity = being irritated easily
had mock exam after that. but it turned out to be like a normal class work instead. haha. and thanks cikgu kamariah for sending me and farah home :D :D much appreciated really. sorry for dragging the time, btw. heeeeezz. but all of us had mind-block la, no kid. seriously couldn't think of what to write for the first section of the paper. and i had to cut my story short so it's crap now. -.- ahhh sedihzzzzzz.
HUHU, 4 MORE DAYS TO WHAT AH? ;D
Friday, May 16, 20085:30 AMback to top?
got results back and it's a major disappointment. seriously. could have died on the spot when i got some of the papers back. swear the only result which i actually like when i got the paper back is english. malay isn't included in the fave results list this time round. screwed the paper. fishballzzzzzzz.
it's okay babes. we shall buck up and do well the next time round alright? so we shall not give up and will not give up just yet. there's still light at the end of the tunnel :D we shall pull through this together darlings. and as the saying goes, "if at first you don’t succeed, dust yourself off and try again"
ATIQAH DARLING! idk what really happened but cheer up okay. you know i'll always be here for you 24/7 if you need anything right? just beep me and i'll be there. don't cry anymore alright? i've got your back. (: so wipe your tears girl. cause i'll be behind supporting you all the way and to cushion you if you were to ever slip and fall. you've got me babe! ;D
Thursday, May 15, 20083:23 AMback to top?
just got back from gym with nadia and fairuz. gee couldn't make it cause SHE WOKE UP LATE. haha, tido jer tau eh. anyway, after gym we bought healthy food and ate them in the bus and now POOF (!) i'm at home :D :D heeeeeeezz.
thought of going bugis to (insert reason here) but damn i'm tired and i feel like sleeping instead or watch movies online. or maybe i'll go parkway parade with syahirah once her school ends. that's if i can drag my butt off the chair and out of the house. HAH okay i'm typing nonsense here.
reminiscing the past, sometimes i wish things would go back to how it was. when we would wait for each other just so we could go home together and all. now we barely even talk and honestly speaking, sometimes even talking seems weird. never knew we'd be out of topic to talk about. gone are the days where we would chat about anything and everything under the sky. nevertheless, i'm happy that you're happy now (: girl, know i'd always be there for you when you need me alright. and no matter how far you are, i'd always be one step behind to support you and to catch you if you were ever to fall. take care babe (:
Tuesday, May 13, 200811:08 PMback to top?
midyear is finally over. yessaaaaahhh. but urgh now the focus is on the upcoming malay o'level paper and english prelim oral. they both fall on the same date. like annoying or annoying? HEH.
syasyahiedaaaaaa! maaf if you have to listen to all the undesirable stories eyy. haha, but i'm used to telling you the stories which gives me the shivers already. so sorry eh babe. tahan boleh tak? can riiiiiiigggghhtt. of course can :D :D HEEEEEEE.
andand i saw sery todaaaaayy. heez, i'm not sure if we'll be able to meet on my bday but if we can't, then we'll meet up some other day okay. the certain thing is, we'll surely meet up alright :D gahha, i miss you and shabrina a hell lot, i swear.
Monday, May 12, 200811:59 PMback to top?
yesterday was fun. haha, i laughed like crap when watching the videos at dee's blog. no, not the farina's x-files. it's the how-to-be videos. haha, hilarioussssss.
i shall keep this post short cause gonna go out with fam to celebrate mumsy's day. and i'll post the photo of dee's new trend of wearing slipper picture in the next post alright. (gee laa, anyhow gave dee's slippers a makeover. hahahaha) okay CIAO.
happy mumsy's day to all mothers! :D :D
Saturday, May 10, 200811:20 PMback to top?
one down two more to go :D yessaaahh. but damn, it'll be intensive malay study after midyear. so not much of a freedom. ahh well. reality check farina. it's sec four life. i have to seriously redefine my term of freedom. damn.
anyway, thanks syasyahieda and rashi for accompanying me to ikea to buy mother's day gift for my mother eyyyy. so one thing crossed off from my list of to-buy-gifts and many more to go. D: i swear i dislike it when the bdays are all cramped up closely to each other. where's my time to save up for the gift maaaaaaann. HEH.
and talking bout bdays, it's my beloved-but-i-swear-super-annoying brother's bday today :D :D
HAPPY 13TH BDAY DUDE! :D May all your heartfelt desires come true and best wishes in all that you do (: study hard okaaaayy. jangan nak berbual kat telephone atau use the computer ajer. and takmoh degil2. dengar cakap orang tua. hahaha okayokay. i'll end it here. anyway, happy birthday once again. and you know i love you right? haha. withlotsalove, YOUR DARLING SISTER ;D
PS. i took the time to edit your picture okaaaaayy. so you better love me a hell lot. HEEEEEEEEE.
Friday, May 9, 20083:44 AMback to top?
this is a chocolate which has a ladybug wrapping. cute eyy. haha
yaye three papers left for midyear :D :D
gee, get well soon okay. can't believe you missed three papers D: must have been really sick eyy. well anyway. REST WELL AND RECOVER PRONTO! :D
i saw atiqah darling today! and i couldn't really tell if it was you cause you looked different in madrasah outfit and home clothes. haha, anyway see you on sunday darling ;D
Thursday, May 8, 200812:43 AMback to top?
i don't know if you're pissed off with me or something. but i don't wanna care. i don't know if i did anything wrong cause i don't think i did any sorta stuffs that would make you annoyed and all. and i don't know what's up either. girl you know we've been distant for some time already. only now that it deteriorates, you seem to realise it. but i've known it all along. since a long time ago. i just didn't wanna wreck the friendship and thus kept it all to myself. i don't know what else to say. guess enough said. goodbye.
all the papers have been okay so far. but poa paper two URGH! if only i had concentrated more on that. should have been easier to do. damn.
thanks darlings for the days after school. i love ya'll so much i swear ;D
haha, i saw fattah today! gosh i miss that dude although i know he was super annoying in primary school. and i'm not sombong okaaaaaaayyy. just wanted you to tegur first. hahahaha.
Friday, May 2, 20083:09 AMback to top?
