looking from the window above
it's like a story of love



tuition was cancelled cause we went to visit aunty lin instead today. we all wish you a speedy recovery kay! :D :D and congrats to your newborn baby boy! huhu. another dude has been brought to the family yo! he's one month plus premature but it's okay. insya'allah he'll be alright. (: can't wait to see dearest baby boy cousin!

SCHOOL TOMORROW! ): why must weekends end ever so quickly?
Sunday, January 27, 2008 6:50 AM back to top?

i remember how you used to say
have no fear be okay










it's nice to laugh so much though it's making your tummy hurts like shiets!
;D ;D ;D how wonderful life is(?) eyy.

and oh gee and me found wondeful books in the library yo!
pinjam once you're done with it kaaayy? screw library fines. /:
Friday, January 25, 2008 6:56 PM back to top?

cause you know i'd walk a thousand miles
if i could just see you tonight



o'level results are out today! ;D congrats to all the people. even you did as expected or otherwise. you've tried your very best and that's what counts alright? (:

ate at the shop near to gee's house today. i miss eating the fried frozen food there. ahh delish! oh gee and me were annoyed they didn't sell anymore juices. WE WANTED GREEN APPLE OKAY. isk nak untung nyer pasal kan? and as gee would go,"kurang ajar btol." i've just realised you uttered that phrase for countless of times today. haha. okay random.

sufi slow la. he called when i've just board the bus. he was late for like a few seconds? zomggg. kentalllll, haha. nevermind. i'll meet you soon kay? and i miss you treating me kfc/bk or any other food. *hinthint ((x

SHAFIQA DARLING!
i wanna meet you tomorrow after school or something kay? we'll go out for a drink or makan aight? i hope you're doing fine right now. (: i love you so much to see you hurt like this. and gosh you worried me like hell okay. syahirah and mama and kak zana and all were worried sick too dearest. take care alright? and STAY STRONG GIRL! :D :D :D
Thursday, January 24, 2008 4:33 AM back to top?

i just want to fall and lose myself
laughing so hard it hurts like hell

we had the cip thingy today. so yeah, we distributed flyers door to door. hell it wasn't easy okay. it turned out to be tiring. from going up and down the staircases with our bags and whatnot. hmphh.

my group was with syahieda, syafiq and zul. the dudes went to the left side of the block and syahieda and me went to the right side. thus we ended up not doing the middle part of the block. hahaha. and zul somewhat became super rajin and decided to go back up again to distribute the flyers. KNOW WHAT? he's smart la. he gave each door around god knows how much each in order to finish the excess flyers. hahahahaha. wth kan? but tkper la. tak yah waste paper klau gitu. huhu.

after that bubble tea for me and syahieda! and syahieda made me laugh so much laaa! hahahahahahahaha. i swear i had stomach cramps because of that kaaaaaayy. gosh you make me laugh a lot. :D :D :D haha!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008 6:08 AM back to top?

with you i can let my hair down, i can do anything crazy
i know you'll catch me right before i hit the ground

i was suppose to blog about this yesterday but was too tired. i didn't even look at the computer when i entered my room kaaay. okay no. maybe i did glance. haha whatever.
the bottom line is, i'd rather sleep.

so anyway, i swear gee and me laughed like two lunatics yesterday. it was all cause of this thingy that both of us wanted la. then gee confident nak beli, talking bout that thing and all. suddenly she was like,

GEE: EH SHIT! AKU BAWAK DUIT KE TAK AH?
SAL AKU LETAK NOTES AKU KAT DALAM BAG.
ME: HUH? MANER LA AKU TAU?
GEE: -COUNTS MONEY- ALAMAK. AKU TAK CUKUP DUIT.
ME: HAHAHAHAHA! THEN CONFIDENT LA SEEEEYYY.

then we both burst our laughing. cause gee was like,"siak ah kau. aku sedih sey kau cakap aku cam gitu." with her face and whatnot. made me laugh even harder laaa. hahahahaha! didn't know gee could ever react that way. then we tried to figure out ways to buy that thing with the amount of money that gee had. and like duhh we came out with super ridiculous things. hahahaha.

ohmygod. even the thought of yesterday's convo made me laugh. i feel stupid laughing infront of my comp while typing this out. hahahahahahahaha. okay stop it.

plus there were other stuffs that we talked about that i can't remember. gosh i couldn't even breathe properly from all that laughter. and i had to squat trying to regain my breathing rate. but it didn't help la duhhh! hahahaha.

okay gee. i think i missed out a lot of stuffs. but hah. nevermind. you continue.
HUHU.
1:26 AM back to top?

i didn't see it coming
i should have started running

dinner was filled with different types of conversational topics. haha.
first it was funny cum weird stuffs. then suddenly we went emo.
then it was pure silence. then we went happy back again. hahahaha.

but the emo topic made my sis and me cry.
cause it was about our late grandmothers.
swear i miss them like nobody's business. ):

and fudge. sean's being annoying like abcdef.
eff cares. i'm not gonna talk to him if he's gonna continue with this shitty attitude of his. whoever possesed him and whatever happened to the old sean? urgh whatever.

i'm supersuper tired. to make things worse, there's maths test tomorrow. and everybody's saying that the test was hard and whatnot. i've never clicked with angles really. oh no. let me correct that. i've never clicked with maths. D: i'm depressed.

so many things running through my mind as well. okay not really. my mind's kinda blank. but anyway. i WAS thinking about some stuffs before i started to blog okaaaaayy. i think i'm starting to think too much. no, i AM thinking too much. okay i should prolly shut up now. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. (that's me screaming my lungs out get it?) gahha.

I DON'T WANNA GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW PLEASE. tuesday(s) always seem to feel long. like as if the clock enjoyed taking its own sweet time to tick, tock and tick and tock.

i'm on the brink of insanity. and no, don't save me. :/
be gone human.
Monday, January 21, 2008 5:03 AM back to top?

i just don't belong here
i hope you understand

you should have never crossed the limits
now it's done and we can't turn back
you should have known about this
now the words you said in mid-air, hanging
you know you should have kept them
those words to yourself, only yourself
to leave them words unspoken
leave them one side cold and frozen
leave them so no one knows
oh boy why can't you see
you and me, we can never be
god, i'm through with this
told myself to not go through another shit.

Saturday, January 19, 2008 5:06 AM back to top?

when the whole world is gone
you won't be alone cause i'll be there

What Farina Means

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

found this in gee's blog. HMM INTERESTING. haha. (x

dearest gee and dee.
the so called not talking to each other was really dumb i swear. haha. it was suppose to be a joke/funfun kinda thing but somewhat got out of hand. and i have to admit, i swear it was hard like shit to try and avoid talking to you two and whatnot. hahaha. but anyway. i love you two so much kay! :D :D :D and let's promise not to let the same shit happen again okay? huhu. ♥

HERE'S THE SONG I WANNA DEDICATE! ;D
alamaaaaaaakk. farina's like so sweeeeet or what la sey? HAHAHAHA.
4:04 AM back to top?

my heart can't possibly break
when it wasn't even whole to start with

WHEN THE SUN SHINES WE'LL SHINE TOGETHER


when a girl is sitting down in silence, sadness has gotten over her and she needs time alone. when a girl starts to cry, she's letting her whole heart out to show how much pain she's feeling but when she's singing and dancing and going crazy like you've never seen before, it's more than just hurt and pain she's feeling. it's just madness telling her,"hey i need a break from all my troubles!" she's neither crying nor mourning. it's all the feelings put together.

eat out with 2e1'06 darlings was so much love. ;D oh plus justin too! haha.
i love them all. and zul made me laughed hard with his magic trick.
show me again okay? huhu.

you don't know.
and nobody has to know.
let's leave some things unsaid.
Thursday, January 17, 2008 4:49 AM back to top?

sometimes in life you feel the fight is over
it's what they call the rise and fall

TAUBAT SEORANG HAMBA - IRSYADEE FEAT. HAFIZ HAMIDUNi swear i love this song. ;D

it sucks when the heavy load of homework finally starts to sink in. ):

ashiq makes me laugh good. :D

and you're on the way down i can't wait to see you burn
(: i'm nice enough. i don't wish you ill.

and i realise i've got 4 different smileys in this post. HMM.
Sunday, January 13, 2008 3:49 AM back to top?

cause you helped me open up my eyes
show me things I could never see

oh cloudy day at TP

meet syahieda darling ;D


meet nadia and farah darlings ;D


SEE MIMI. I'M UPDATING OKAAAAYY.

yesterday's tp open house was nice. :D and it was a last minute decision to go actually. hmm. so anyway. went with syahieda, nadia, farah and illya. then sharifah and alex tagged along. HAHAHAHA. walking to the bus stop was retarded. i brought them to the further stop when we could have taken the bus from interchange. SORRY EH PEOPLE. had to walk in the hothothot sun. HEEEEEEE. XD but takper. at least we got to excersice kan kan kan? haha.

once there, we each took a bag and designed our own shirts and whatnot. suddenly mimi came from behind. so she tagged along as well. we took forever to think of what to write on our shirt i swear. haha. sorry that dude for having to wait for us eyy. so we went to the engineering school first. it was cool there. the high-tech stuffs and all. farah and illya had fun playing around with the stuffs i guess. haha. and farah now doesn't have to do magic tricks using card anymore ehh. now can use hands ajer ah. cheychey.

next was design school. hafidz told us there was a fashion show going on but we came a bit too late. so yeah. missed the show. ahh sedih. but takper. some other time? the clothes were cool. original stuffs yo! ;D and god knows how those people managed to draw that nicely. i swear if i were to do that, the paper would tear and whatnot due to vigorous erasing. HEH.

then, BUSINESS SCHOOL! :D :D :D that's our favourite i must say. mass com. was the best. and we witnessed some dj at work. interestinginteresting. we were already dead tired by the time we're at business school. so we decided to fool around and took every brochure available there for fun. haha. tak btol eh. and mimi kurang asam btol. she took like a lot a lot and passed them all to me. so i had like, multiple brochures with me. -.- THANKS EH THANKS. anyway, we took banyak sweets there. and one of the dude was like,"so you come here for sweets only la?" haha. sort of? lapar la from walking here and there.

final stop was 1st avenue. and farah, aiyaiyai. she has to be extraextra careful i guess? haha. tahu2 every (fill in the blank) in the shop there she (fill in the blank). im being nice by not saying what happened kaaaaay. huhu. (x

OH BTW. EKA IS SUPERSUPERSUPER LUCKY. she managed to win an apple ipod shuffle from this lucky draw thingy. lucky or what la sey? haha. best nyaaaaaa.

terserempak with many people there. like kak fiza, hafidz, jolyn, farah nadia. plus other np people from prcs and other people i can't remember who. haha. and farah nadia sempat to say,"see you on sunday!" la sey. you had to remind me of madrasah eh. hahaha.

after that went to eat with syahieda and my sister at macd. there was just too much to talk about (fill in the blank) and it was never ending eh. haha. reached home around 9 plus and i was totally drained out. HAH.
Saturday, January 12, 2008 5:07 AM back to top?

i wanna scream
it makes me feel alive

AIN'T NO WAY - CHRIS BROWN
HOTSTUFF BAYBEHH!
;D

hahahahaha. sorry nadia about the macd thingy.
i forgot my voice ter-over tinggi ah. heeee! xD

and oh. farah is seerrrlooowwww.
she's just figured out something which occured last year?
haha. belo la girl.

talking about belo. omgxzszxzszxsz. i was so semangat to sembahyang and all just now. sekali tahutahu, when i started to baca doa, the first doa i read was doa tidur. HAHAHAHA. kentaaaalllll
la seeeeyyyy. eesheesh. nie sumer skolah nyer pasal. buat orang penat sangat sampai bila nak baca
doa iftitah, terbaca doa tidur pulak. HAH.

WAHIDAH WANTS 19 ANAKS.
7 NAMA HARI. 12 NAMA BULAN.
we'll wait and see eh girl.
macam paham ajer ditu. huhu.
Thursday, January 10, 2008 1:01 AM back to top?

now he's losing it
she doesn't care

ALY & AJ - CAREFUL WITH WORDS

the song's to whoever it may concern.
-plays cricket sound-

screw the effed up rumours.





):
i'm not happy. HMMMMPPPHH!
Tuesday, January 8, 2008 4:51 AM back to top?

and if forever ends one day
i promise you i'll stay

getting to meet the madrasah darlings was nice. been so long yeahhh. aww, much misses! ;D and it seems like it is a small world eyy elly? haha. AISYAH AND ME HAVE TELEPATHIC POWER WHEN IT COMES TO PARENT-LIKE NAGGING YO! HAHAHAHA. were laughing our asses off during the skit practice. interesting interesting. XD

sorry for not attending any madrasah outing yeah. promise i'll make it to the next one eyy siddique. sorry you had to blast off over the recent one. heh. it was a last minute change i swear. won't happen again? heeee. anyway, i've promised you i'll reallyreally try to make it for the next outing. so yeah. shall keep to it alright. :D
Sunday, January 6, 2008 7:25 AM back to top?

if your sky is grey oh let me know
there's a place in heaven where we'll go



here's about an indonesian movie i watched yesterday.

there was this girl. her name's sasha. sasha vowed to become a tomboy as her sister died from being raped. she promised to be a strong girl and to never let the same incident happen to herself.

one day, she accidentally bumped into a guy. his name is arnold. arnold was cute, rich and whatevernot you want in a guy. so she fell for him. however, arnold prefers girls who are feminine and elegant. those type who wears high heels and do girly girl stuffs. for arnold's sake, she broke her vow and changed into a girly girl. sasha started wearing skirts and high heels. she even tried to join the cheerleading squad. with the help of one of her best frieds, lola, she became a girly girl.

sasha's another best friend, ronald, however, disagreed with the whole situation. he said to her, "he doesn't love you because you're beautiful. you're beautiful because he loves you." he tried to convince her that arnold doesn't really love her as he only started to notice her when she had changed into a girly girl. sasha got angry with ronald for saying such things and didn't talk to him for a some time.

sasha did many things for arnold. she even cooked for him. all this to impress arnold. sasha's birthday was nearing and she was going to have a party. so she invited arnold and her schoolmates.

that night, on her birthday. arnold went up to stage. she though arnold was going to confess his love for her and maybe ask her for stead. shockingly, he confessed his love to another girl, dina, ronald's girlfriend.

all this while, arnold only pretended to like sasha back. it was all a plot. dina planned it all. dina wanted to seek revenge on sasha. she was angry and hurt cause all the time when she was with ronald, the only thing ronald would talk about was sasha. sasha this, sasha that, sasha sasha everywhere. so she persuaded arnold to get back at sasha for the hurt she felt.

dina wanted sasha to know how it feels like if the guy you love never once loved you back. not even a small piece of his heart belonged to dina. it was all sasha. all this while, sasha was the only one he loved. he's with dina at sight but with sasha at heart.
12:21 AM back to top?

in the end i wanna be standing
at the beginning with you

SUM 41 - BEST OF ME
I LOVE TODAY! ;D
the seminar was just so wonderful. and it's really an eye-awakening thing for me. made me realise my mistakes and all. like how ungrateful i've been, taking advantage of things and not appreciating the things i have around me.

dearest friends,
i'm thankful i have known each and everyone of you in my life and i'm certainly very grateful to have ya'll in my life. (: words can never describe how much ya'll mean to me. although we may have misunderstandings at times, that's what helps to strengthen our bond when we talk things out and all. i'm sorry for not saying thank you to ya'll for the wonderful friendship we've made. so here i am. SORRY AND THANK YOU.
ILYA'LL! :D :D :D

syahieda darling.
you'll always have us by your side. WE ARE FAMILY, remember? so cry not, and wipe your tears dearest. we'll go through hardships together. we love you and will always be there for you. even if it's 4 in the morning. (: stay strong girl. <3

"we may be able to set our alarm clock at night. but we may not be able to wake up to set it off the next morning."

TOUCHED.
Friday, January 4, 2008 4:44 AM back to top?

i'd throw it all away
to the shadow of regrets

lessons without the guys around was lovelylovelylovely.
mdm zaibon gave us a talk on some life skills. and it was nice really. she shared her life experiences and whatnot. (: i enjoyed listening though i was starting to fall asleep in the later part. haha no don't get me wrong. it wasn't boring. we were just sleepy cause hello it's early in the morning. so yeah, do the maths yo.

oh my god hayani and me actually enjoyed maths lesson today! ;D whooo! mr tay is such a wonderful teacher i swear. he's super nice and simply wonderful la okay. he's the type where you won't and don't feel afraid to ask as many questions as possible ya'know. so it's nice. and he's good in teaching as well. at least it's okay enough for us to actually understand maths. huhu.

then comes to np after school. oh same old stuffs. but plus we got to eat chips for today.
haha thanks mr benson tay eyy. :D :D
Thursday, January 3, 2008 6:31 AM back to top?

as your lies crumble down
a new life she has found

school was okay. lessons will start as per normal tomorrow. and omgah can you believe that there was actually np training on the first day of school? (okay actually it was sort of expected) like whattheabcdef kan kan kan? tu sebab ah. but nevermind. we all penyabar people. we terima apa2 sahaja dugaan yang diberi. huhu. macam understand ajer.

anyway. jihan, myrah and me fooled around. and we made fun of waaaay too many things.
with the iced/icy lolly thingy, the how long she gave her speech, and whatevernot else which got in our way to go out of school to eat cause we swear we were hungry like crappp. haha retarded much. we blame empty stomachs for that.

dee finally told her long awaited story. was kinda laughing my ass off to what she said. okay no. my ass was still intact. but it was super crap. how would you react if a playboy actually tried to give you advice on your relationship? merepek kan? macam nak kener cepuk jer. haha, dah playboy buat hal playboy la eh. diam diam sudah. eesh. goblok nyer budak. HAH. okay no dissing farina.

AFIQ IS KENTALER THAN ME. fullstop ok, haha.

alright. tandas is calling out for me. i blame kfc. -.-
Wednesday, January 2, 2008 3:47 AM back to top?