here we go again



yesterday's job hunting ;D the escalator was so freaking slowwww, we managed
to snap seven pictures on our way down, hahaha.

i know it's never worth talking about it. but you just had to start on it.
FUCK! you'll never understand.
Thursday, November 27, 2008 11:05 PM back to top?

something about the way the stars align tonight

was suppose to go job hunting with deedee today but the both of us were unwell.
haha. so we're gonna go tomorrow instead :D cepat la dapat kerja, RRR.

met daeng yesterday night. caught up with each other's life and whatnot.
it's nice, being able to talk to him like old times back again (: cause he's always
able to make me laugh no matter how horrible i feel. although his way of cheering
me up is irritating like crap pfft, i wanna say thanks for being there for me the
other time. it's much appreciated really (: i'm forever grateful to have known you
in my life. betol tak bedek ;D and oh, i know this sounds retarded but i laughed to
myself whenever i recall your buruk to the max laughter yesterday. so unexpected
laaaa. haha!

with ♥
Tuesday, November 25, 2008 4:25 AM back to top?

stronger than ever bby






finally managed to cycle to pasir ris park with fairuz today :D
surprisingly, there weren't many people there. thought it'd be more pack.
aha, but anyway. the weather was nice to cycle. it was windy and all (:
best per, cycle abeh rambut brushed by the wind. hahaha feeling model la gitu.
feelingfeeling jer eh. tak lebih tak sikit (x

have fun at prom geegeeku ;D myrah too! and all the others going for it.
hopefully worth the 70 bucks eh, insya'allah. haha.

with ♥
Monday, November 24, 2008 9:52 PM back to top?

look in the mirror& keep on shining

quick update on the past few days:

life's been going uphill once again for me. or at least it's trying to (:
and i'm not gonna be scared to have a hearty laugh anymore. i'm gonna laugh
as buruk-ly as i want and you ain't gonna have a say on that (x muahahahaha.

syahirah and family have returned safely to singapore, alhamdulillah& yaye :D
they bought a lot of chocolate and i swear i gained some weight when i stayed
over at their house. been eating chocolate non-stop la, haha. i'd be complaining
bout the weight i'd put on while still shoving the chocolate into my mouth.
takper, sekali sekala eh syahirah eh ;D

pentas was enjoyable, especially the girls dikir barat part. hillarious, in fact (:
thought the starting was quite boring cause i didn't really know what the story
was about but overall, it was nice (: worth the 6 bucks. one dollar extra tu
asal eh hafidz? GST eh? haha ;p

i'm still looking for a job and it sucks cause i'm tired and i wanna give up but
i don't wanna be grumpy and penniless over the long but not that long break D:
cepaaaaattt. saper nak recommend kerja? :D :D i'll promise to love you a little
bit more, HEEEEE!

YAYE cycling with fairuz love tomorrow :D finally ah.

and oh, linked and relinked people!

sooner than it seems, life turns around
&i will be strong even if it all goes wrong

with ♥
Sunday, November 23, 2008 8:28 AM back to top?

a walk to remember

AFRO GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN ;D ;D















TPRAWKS = GREAT FUN :D
i'm too lazy to get some more pictures so if you want to see more,
drop by tiara's blog yeah (: and i'm too lazy to update on the whole
thing too, so i'll let the pictures do the talking instead :D

with ♥
Thursday, November 20, 2008 9:36 AM back to top?

all get better in time

i'm starting to forget about everything that ever happened between us.
let it all just be a part of my memory, a past that i would never look back to.
i want to focus on the future and live life blissfully. no more tears to shed.
i'm moving on and so over it (:

thanks people who were there to help me pick myself up again. it hurts to let
go i know, but if that's the best thing for me to do then by all means i'll let go
(: i don't want to hang on to something that will only give me pain and heartache.
this will be the only post where i'll talk about the pain i'm feeling. no more
sad posts after this okay :D

it sucks cause all you ever know is to say "i'm sorry", too much till it has
no effect on me anymore. sure, when you've done something you feel bad about,
that's the only thing you can think of to say. but sorry doesn't make things
any better. it won't change anything. but whatever, it happened already.
i've got nothing to say. it's solely my fault to have trusted and fall again.
but it's okay. i shall learn from this and be stronger and wiser in the future
(: a blessing in disguise for me.

it sucks too cause i had always been there for you. you know i had. i was there
when you needed support and all. but it's alright. i did it with sincerity. i'm
not asking for anything in return (: i wish you well in life. god bless (:

it'll hurt but it'll all get better in time (:

hafidz, thank you once again. i know you must have gotten tired of listening
to me cry like shit over the phone. haha. but thanks for being there like most
of the time (: i'm here for you too kay. we've got each other to pull through
any obstacles in the future yeah :D

with ♥
Monday, November 17, 2008 8:57 AM back to top?

i'm still right here, where'd you go?

life's been pretty much going down the drain after o's :/
i've yet to see the joy of life after o's. something good happen please?

just got back from dee's house. overnight at her place yesterday (:
i ain't gonna give a full detail bout whatever stuffs we did, but anywaaaayyy.
after such a long (okay maybe not so long) time of not meeting them, we finally
had the time to spend time together. we talk a lot, bout the past, present and
whatnot necessary. it feels good, to be able to talk bout your life to your gfs
ya'know? and no matter how freaking low you feel, they can always make you
feel better. like as if you didn't even have any problems in the beginning (:
ahh, i love you two to death i swear (:

thanks aqilah& sandra for making me feel better as well (: a kental day-out
with you two can make me forget bout all the problems i had. don't worry yeah,
i'll be alright (: farina kan strong. haha :D sayaaangg kamu dua.

thanks hafidz for the listening ear too! :D we're kinda in the same boat but
it's alright. we'll get through this yeah (:

look around, do you feel something's missing? i'm the one you promised
you would love but you got ahead so far away while i'm holding on, please
turn around. i see you but i don't feel you. can't get your attention to save
my love. look back and see me now. don't let me down. please turn around
with ♥
Sunday, November 16, 2008 5:55 PM back to top?

run bby run, don't ever look back

today marks the end of o's bbyyyyyy! :D :D to those yang dah end days before,
whatever ehhhhhhh. huhu. i'm freaking excited to look forward to life after o's
but at the same time nervous cause i don't know what to expect. hah okay takper.
it's suppose to be a happy occassion right? RIGHT? D:

syahirah ku telah terbang ke paris. idk why but i just feel like calling her up
and cry over the phone or something. there's something i want to let out but
i don't know what :/ cepat pulang iyaaa. i think you're still in the airplane
btw. THIRTEEN HOURS journey seyyy. haha. have a safe flight to& fro alright (:
i miss you already, dearest dearest cousin of mine.

alright, gotta get ready to job hunt with aqilah& sandra. till next time.

with ♥
Wednesday, November 12, 2008 6:29 PM back to top?

last thing i needed to hear



shit, i don't want to have a hearty laugh anymore cause it'll cause some upsetting
thing to occur. damn it, tak sukaaaaaa D: D:

anywaaayy, one paper left to goooo! ahh, freaking ecstatic. i'm so happy i can
jump on the bed and prolly break it or something. haha, serious tak bedek (x
but irritating uh, we the bio students end our paper later than those non-bio
students. whatever ehhhhhhhhh. kita slow& steady wins the race uhh. HUHU :D

oh noo. syahirah darling and family leaving for PARIS tmr. i'm gonna miss them
a hell lot i swearr. and who will i go crying on the phone to if syahirah's not
hereee? ala, hide me in the luggage or something uhh. saya tak mind, betol! :D :D
HEEE! have fun ya'll (: and like i've said, i want you to bring me back eiffel tower.
i don't accept imitations. i want the real thaaaannggg, bby! haha!

with ♥
Tuesday, November 11, 2008 6:05 PM back to top?

if i could take a step back

daaang, i hafta study for tmr's paper after such a long period of not studying.
it's okay farina, it's okay (: two more papers& you're done with o's bby! :D :D
i kinda forgot how to study. hahaha. it's okay, shall put my TYS to good use.
i'm so gonna study with the tv switched on, i don't care ;p ;p

idk why. but my stomach/diaphragm/chest hurts when i try to breathe.
oh well :D

with ♥
Monday, November 10, 2008 7:30 PM back to top?

love like this

When you break her heart - [ the pain NEVER really goes away ]
When she misses you - [ she's hurting inside ]
When she says its over - [ she STILL wants you to be hers ]
When she re-posts this bulletin - [ she wants you to read it ]
When she walks away from you mad - [ Follow her]
When she stare's at your mouth - [ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit's you - [ Grab her and don’t let go ]
When she starts cursing at you - [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she ignores you - [ Give her your attention]
When she pulls away - [ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst - [ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word ]
When you see her walking - [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared - [ Protect her ]
When she lays her head on your shoulder - [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steals your favorite hat - [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she teases you - [ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt - [ Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she says that she likes you - [ she really does more than you could understand ]
When she grabs at your hands - [ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]
When she bumps into you - [ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret - [ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes - [ don’t look away until she does ]
Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
DON'T let her have the last word
DON'T call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is soo much better
Say you love her more than she could ever love you
Argue that she is the best girl ever
When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
When she says she's OK don’t believe it, talk with her
because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
Treat her like she's all that matters to you
Tease her and let her tease you back
Stay up all night with her when she's sick
Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid
Give her the world
Let her wear your clothes
When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
Let her know she's important
Kiss her in the pouring rain
When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

aha, saw this posted at friendster's bulletin.
only happens in fairytales don't you think so? ahh, fairytales. haha.

anyway, headed to my aunt's place for my cousin's surprise birthday party
yesterday. bet she had the shock of her life. hahaha. can't help but laugh
at her reaction when she opened the door and we all went "SURPRISEEEEE!"
haha! funny funny :D :D and i love the cake btwwwww. the white chocolate
were to die for. sedap bangeeeeett.

but damn, i felt freaking fat when i got home. complained to deedee about it.
i kept on eating and eating and eating laaaaa. like c'mon, the food were all
right smack in front of your face. what else would you do? get my dilema?
ahhh, yess. tight situation to be in kaaaan. hahaha.

anywaaay, i'll post the peekchas once i get them for syahirah darling and
if i feel like posting them. heee. alright. till next time.

with ♥
Sunday, November 9, 2008 3:36 AM back to top?

let go of yesterday

[edit]
although you woke me up from my sleep at two in the morning (thank you very much for that, not heh) just to tell me that, i'm happy you've finally decided to let go of everything that happened between us in the past (: and you know you're happily attach to her despite the stuffs you complained to me about. so do treat her well and do take very good care of her alright. i don't want you to make the same mistake like the one you did in the past. repeat the same mistake and i'll chop your head off or something. chey, macam understand jer haha. but anywaaay, i wish you well in your life. god bless (:
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Friday, November 7, 2008 8:58 PM back to top?

baby take my hand& we can fly away to somewhere new

ahh, been long since i last spent time together with dearest cousins.
although today was so not a planned outing kinda thing, we four gathered at
mak busu's house. uddin and sufi used the computer and played god-knows-what-
online-game (pfft boys) while syahirah and me used the laptop and listened
to oldschool songs when syahirah should be studying for her lit paper tmr laa.
haha!

then in the evening syahirah and yours truly helped farah to get ready for her
grad night. pretty i tell youuuuu. but whatever ah she. tak nak give us the credit
when her kawans all complimented her. bukan nak promote us both or smthg ke.
who knows if we can open up an agency for this kinda stuff keeeeee. hahahaha
(x ahh, if only ehhh. *sighssss

sent farah to meet her kawans somewhere near their school. chey, like bodyguards perrrr. hahaha. after that headed for dinner. we first sat at the kopitiam place cause syahirah doesn't really like fast-food. but later we moved to kfc, don't ask me why. then we moved back to kopitiam. it was freaking irritating cause our stomachs were already growling but that woman eh, tak boleh come to a decision. nak makan pun susah, aiyoooo. macam nak ketuk jer kepala dier ngan kerusi tau. whoy, violent tuu. hahahaha. then lepas makan, we still bought like 6 donuts although sorang2 dah rasa kenyang sekenyang nyer. haha. but sedap okay the donut. donut empire tauuu. HEEEE :D :D

then damdidamdidam. and i'm now at home. insya'allah going jogging with deedee
and her cousin and her cousin's dad tmr. haha. cute kaaaan. alright then.
till next time (:

with ♥
Thursday, November 6, 2008 6:41 AM back to top?

the way that i love

i don't really intend to reopen blog till after o's but what the hell.
i feel like o's over anyway. haha, daaang. it's not suppose to be a good thing.
and i want to have all the fun i want before the release of results cause i know
i'm gonna be freaking depressed after that and would not want to go out or any of
that sort even if you were to come to my house and drag me out off bed. HAH!

whoa okay. that's a long sentence.

hmm. where should i start eh. so much has been going on in my life.
but i'm too lazy to update you with it. i dont think you'd even care kaaan.
*raises eyebrows up and down. haha. so i'm just gonna update about whatever that needs to be updated alright. go with the flow ya'know ya'know ya'know.
*poke poke. HEE!

i would update bout yesterday's job hunting but i think i've typed enough.
alright then. till next time ;D

with ♥
Wednesday, November 5, 2008 11:41 PM back to top?